With immortality
Is best disclosed by Danger
Or quick Calamity—
As Lightning on a Landscape
Exhibits Sheets of Place—
Not yet suspected—but for Flash—
And Click—and Suddenness.
-F901, J974, 1865
This poem points us to a revelation. Since the landscape is dark, though, we don't know what that revelation is. All we have is the finger pointing into the dark. This poem bears witness to an experience of Truth. The revelation is best described by this witness as "the soul's distinct connection with Immortality."
This revelation, she tells us, is disclosed by danger and calamity. Dickinson is like Dante returning with Virgil from hell, albeit with far more brevity. What our harrowing witness reveals to us in this poem, in the fewest words possible, is just the word Immortality and our soul's distinct connection to it. Since these words "Immortality" and "Soul" are quite slippery ones, everything hinges on how you interpret them. Careful, don't fall!
What is a Soul? What is Immortality? (And how can Emily wield these words with such impunity?)
For most people Immortality means the self goes on forever. Immortality, though, is impossible. It is a self-negating paradox. To be mortal is to have flesh and blood, so one cannot be not mortal.
What makes most sense to me is that those memories just go. Like, the universe has to free up the Cloud to allow for new memories.
If Immortality is not some kind of living-forever of the self, then what is it? What kind of immortality is it that danger and calamity reveals? What is this "distinct connection"?
I suppose only those who have experienced intense danger and calamity would know the answer to this question. I don’t think I have ever quite felt this myself. I’ve felt terror, and have experienced some terrible things, but none of them made me see a flash of Immortality lighting up the landscape.
I've felt something akin to forever, but it was disclosed in an entirely different way than through Danger. Here's the story in brief. On the last day of a 41 day vow of silence I was sitting in a lake and looking at the moon and felt an overwhelming sensation. A connection to the universe is the best way I can describe it. I wept. It was an Everything at Once Everywhere non-duality kind of feeling. That felt akin to Immortality. The fear of death dropped away. There was not only no sense of Danger or Calamity, but there was NO MORE danger and calamity forever.
Danger, on the contrary, makes me want to hold on more dearly to life. When I face calamity, I feel the opposite of Immortality: I want to hold on to the temporal.
But what I do feel in moments of Danger and Calamity is a deeper sense of what is Real and meaningful to me, a connection to loved ones and to the earth and stars beyond. Perhaps love comprises a kind of immortality then?
The Life we have is very great.
The Life that we shall see
Surpasses it, we know, because
It is Infinity.
But when all Space has been beheld
And all Dominion shown
The smallest Human Heart’s extent
Reduces it to none.
I’ve long been fascinated by Dickinson's conception of immortality. It goes beyond the usual definition of the word. In one of her letters she writes, "It may be she came to show you Immortality." I suspect she was speaking of a young one who died. But she might just as well be speaking of herself too. So what is it she came to show us? The following quotes are all taken from her letters.
"No heart that break
but further went than
Immortality."
"Emerson's intimacy with
his "Bee" only
immortalized him."
"The 'infinite beauty' of
which you speak comes
too near to seek."
"Show me eternity, and
I will show you Memory-
Be you - While I am Emily -
Be next - what you have ever been -
Infinity."
"There is no first, or
last, in Forever-
It is Centre, there,
all the time."
"The risks of immortality
are perhaps its charm."
"A letter always seemed
to me like Immortality,
for is it not the Mind
alone, without corporeal friend?"
"Dear friend, can you walk,
were the last words that I wrote her.
Dear friend, I can fly-
her immortal reply."
"An hour for books
those enthralling friends
the immortalities"
"The immortality of flowers
must enrich our own."
"Amazing human heart-
a syllable can make
to quake like jostled tree-
what Infinite - for thee!"
I will show you Memory-
Be you - While I am Emily -
Be next - what you have ever been -
Infinity."
"Amazing human heart-
a syllable can make
to quake like jostled tree-
what Infinite - for thee!"
What do you make of all that? Immortality is tied in with a broken heart, with intimacy with a bee, with the cycles of nature, with memory, with what you have always been, with the eternal moment, with risks, with the written word (letters and books), with flight, flowers, and the power of the human heart.
She’s getting at the circumference of something profound here, and this poem is just another clue: Danger and Calamity.
Rory Scovel: 'One time my daughter asked me, “What happens when you die?” And I was like, “I don’t know. And neither does anyone else. And anyone who tells you they know is lying to you." My wife was like, “Hey, why don’t we pull it back a little bit? Let’s pull it back.”'
P.P.S. I had a long philosophical conversation with AI about this poem. It was insightful, but ultimately, frustrating. It’s too long to post here, but if you are interested in AI's ontological take on the afterlife, this is good grist for the mill.