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18 December 2014

I tried to think a lonelier Thing

I tried to think a lonelier Thing
Than any I had seen —
Some Polar Expiation — An Omen in the Bone
Of Death's tremendous nearness —

I probed Retrieveless things
My Duplicate — to borrow —
A Haggard Comfort springs

From the belief that Somewhere —
Within the Clutch of Thought —
There dwells one other Creature
Of Heavenly Love — forgot —

I plucked at our Partition
As One should pry the Walls —
Between Himself — and Horror's Twin —
Within Opposing Cells —

I almost strove to clasp his Hand,
Such Luxury — it grew —
That as Myself — could pity Him —
Perhaps he — pitied me —
                                     F570 (1863)  J532

I've had a phrase in my head for years and always want to credit it to Pope but can never ascertain if he said it or not, or who did: "the bird who presses its breast against a thorn to sing". Maybe I got it as a quote in Colleen McCullough's Thorn Birds or something. I'm reminded of it by this poem where Dickinson subjects herself to an intense thought experiment, seeking to imagine the loneliest "Thing" she can. That Thing turns out to be her "Duplicate" or double.
         The poet makes her purpose clear: this is an expedition of "Expiation", some cleansing through an extreme, "Polar" experience. Dickinson has associated northerly polar regions with God before, notably in "My period had come for Prayer" (F525) where she steps "upon the North" to look for God. In "Through the Straight Pass of Suffering" (F187) she compares the faith of the martyrs to a compass needle which "to the North Degree / Wades – so – through Polar Air!" but in this poem she is going for the bitter, remorseless cold where she can feel Death in her bones. 
         Dickinson doesn't give any clues about why she seeks expiation, but it clearly involves making contact with her Duplicate. She probes "Retrieveless things" to "borrow" him. Perhaps that is the realm of the dead for surely all who pass there become retrieveless. She doesn't want to keep or reanimate this soul, but merely form some fleeting connection. Just the idea that such a creature is possible brings her a "Haggard Comfort". Dickinson's surmise that he exists "Somewhere – / Within the Clutch of Thought" strengthens the word likeness of "Expiation" to "Expediton", for on this trip Thought is its own realm. The other meaning of "clutch" – to grasp – suggests the difficulty of this thought expedition. 
The Count of Monte Cristo as prisoner
         What makes the imagined potential creature her Duplicate is that he too is an outcast, someone "Of Heavenly Love – forgot". Dickinson implies that Heavenly Love has been extended to all others; only she and "one other Creature" are forgotten. Could it be that the expiation involves an actual person, now dead? Some soul mate? To reach him she plucks at the partition between life and death as if she were a prisoner and he, "Horror's Twin", was in a cell on the opposite side. The phrase suggests that the plucking prisoner/poet is the Horror. 
         Dickinson makes a similar ambiguous identification with horror in "That after Horror – that 'twas us"  (F243) where a brush with death is like having a "Face of Steel" look at you with a "metallic grin": "The Cordiality of Death – / Who drills his Welcome in". The terror of this encounter explains perhaps why in the current work the poet "almost strove" to take her Duplicate's hand. She doesn't want a closer brush with death than the "Omen in the Bone". 
This encounter is a truly lonely moment. She clearly senses the Duplicate; he seems to be within reach. Yet having struggled to find him, to borrow him, she stops short of touch.  But the poem does end with a bit more than the hoped-for "Haggard Comfort". She imagines a bond of pity between them, and this is "Luxury". It's a dark place when pity passes for luxury, but it is a place of truth. Not many dive into the depths without the safety net of heavenly love.  Who could pity a Horror? Perhaps only "Horror's Twin". 

13 comments:

  1. What a brave fearful lonely intrepid polar explorer of the mind.

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  2. Jed Deppman has a really thorough and interesting analysis of this poem in the piece "Trying to Think with Emily Dickinson," deeply exploring both the futility of thought and its implication on the speaker's deep-seated loneliness.

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    1. Can you summarize it in any way? or include an insight?

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    2. There is much to this analysis, but here is a bit from it I found illuminating.

      "The mirroring twins are connected only by a fantasy of mutual pity, but somehow
      this self-consciously pathetic vision results in a feeling of “Such Luxury -.” It turns
      out that it was the purpose of the original try of thought to produce this mental
      drama of a virtual community and make it credibly intelligible as a consolatory
      grace earned by thought alone. The feeling of luxury, the awe on this human trinket, would thus grow out of the confidence produced by the experimental force of
      thought itself."

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  3. The bird and thorn story is Oscar Wilde, I believe.

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  4. https://booksc.org/book/70933906/bac16d. Read your blog 23rd Dec 2021. Still haven't grasped the poem, but it touched me deeply, perhaps related to our non-existence, or a I outside looking in at the me this side of existence. Found the link to the paper by Jed Deppman. I haven't read it yet.

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    1. this one I couldn't find, but with a little rooting, found it herehttp://www.shirleymohr.com/JHU/Sample_Articles_JHUP/EDJ_2004_14_1.pdf

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  5. “Dickinson doesn't give any clues about why she seeks expiation, but it clearly involves making contact with her Duplicate. . . . Dickinson's surmise that he exists "Somewhere – / Within the Clutch of Thought" suggests the difficulty of this thought expedition.” (Susan K, explication)

    Jed Deppman, a contemporary genius (died 2019, age 52), devoted eight pages of his magnum opus to an analysis of this poem. Thank you, “d. scribe”, for this reference:

    http://www.shirleymohr.com/JHU/Sample_Articles_JHUP/EDJ_2004_14_1.pdf

    Be ye forewarned, Deppman’s book is not light reading:

    “Margaret Peterson (1979. American Women Writers) has argued that Dickinson’s most “impassioned” poems can become “a series of ecstatic assertions, an abandonment to excess verging on mental unbalance”. In what follows, however, I argue the opposite case and portray her not as a mystic but as a serious thinker. In my view Dickinson provides fewer ecstatic assertions than careful sequences of ideas and images, not so much “abandonment to excess” as thoughtful production of, and reaction to, extreme states of being. My goal is to show how dominant she found the category of thought, how committed she was to certain projects of thinking, and why she needed lyric poetry to address them.”

    Deppman, Jed. 2008. Trying to Think with Emily Dickinson, Chap 2, The Emily Dickinson Journal, 14(1): 49-74.

    Deppman’s entire book, also titled ‘Trying to Think with Emily Dickinson’, is available for sale, or free with academic research privileges at most universities.

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  6. Doppelganger: a biologically unrelated double of a living person.

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doppelgänger

    “What makes the imagined potential creature her Duplicate is that he too is an outcast, someone "Of Heavenly Love – forgot". Dickinson implies that Heavenly Love has been extended to all others; only she and "one other Creature" are forgotten.” (Susan K. explication.)

    “. . . Somewhere —
    Within the Clutch of Thought —
    There dwells one other Creature
    Of Heavenly Love — forgot —”

    In 1863, after a year of Charles Wadsworth’s preaching at Calvary Presbyterian Church in San Francisco, George Burrowes (1811-1894), one of the pioneer Presbyterian ministers and educators who planted Presbyterianism in California, wrote his Impressions of Dr. Wadsworth as a minister:

    “The very appearance of the man in the pulpit shows his abhorrence of claptrap and cant. You see that self is left in the background. . . . He shrinks from public notoriety, public demonstrations, and public applause. He possesses eminently, so much so that it is a deficiency in his character, the very unusual disposition to undervalue himself and his productions. He cannot understand how he could ever be viewed as a preacher of mark and power. The crowds that have ever hung around his ministry, are to him alone a mystery. After sermons under which all hearts in a crowded congregation are melted down, and recover from their breathless and even painful attention with admiration and tears, he alone will sit down overcome with a sense of failure and of little worth in so magnificent an effort. Nor is this feeling of personal shortcoming and unworthiness a mere pretense, a maneuver for drawing forth expressions of admiration. It is a deep, honest conviction, resulting from a constitutional peculiarity that can never be removed. A humility so unfeigned, allied with so much greatness, and mellowed, no less than deepened, by divine grace, throws a great charm around the character, and gives an attractiveness seldom met in such a world."

    Anderson, C.A. and C.M. Drury. 1955. San Francisco Journal of George Burrowes. Journal of the Presbyterian Historical Society, 33(3): 157-180.

    In Charles Wadsworth, ED met her soulmate, both of them “Of Heavenly Love — forgot —”.

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  7. Wow, that's a powerful description of CW. One can see from that description what must have drawn ED to him. Thanks for including here, Larry B.

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  8. What feels compelling was that Burrowes' description of CW, completely independent of descriptions of CW when he was back east, reads like a carbon copy of his reputation in Philadelphia, where ED first heard him preach.

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  9. You must have felt terribly lonely, Emily. I can pity you.

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