Without the Loneliness —
I'm so accustomed to my Fate —
Perhaps the Other — Peace —
Would interrupt the Dark —
And crowd the little Room —
Too scant — by Cubits — to contain
The Sacrament — of Him —
I am not used to Hope —
It might intrude upon —
Its sweet parade — blaspheme the place —
Ordained to Suffering —
It might be easier
To fail — with Land in Sight —
Than gain — My Blue Peninsula —
To perish — of Delight —
F535 (1863) J405
Dickinson presents two contrasting states of being in this paradoxical poem. One is a difficult status quo and the other is an imagined state of union with the beloved.
The status quo doesn't seem very appealing: the speaker has a small room, dark and filled with loneliness; like a cell in a strict and austere convent, it has been "Ordained" by its occupant to be a place of suffering. In the last stanza we see her at sea in danger of drowning but within sight of land.
Each of these conditions has its possible opposite, and the speaker ponders these potentialities. Instead of "Loneliness" – her "Fate" – she might have "Peace". This peace, however, seems contingent upon the presence of "Him" – a beloved person, potential lover, or perhaps a godly lover. The paradox is that loneliness has become such a real presence that "It might be lonelier" without it. The peace radiated by the beloved's presence would disrupt the darkness of her "little Room"; additionally, his presence has a holy, sacramental quality that would crowd the space. Finally, "Hope" with its "sweet parade" might "intrude", even "blaspheme" the lonely suffering.
In the last stanza the beloved is seen as a sort of paradise, a "Blue Peninsula". To gain it would be death by "Delight". The beauty of this last image conjures up not only Paradise but the perfect lover.
The beauty of the poem as a whole is that it may be read as a struggle against the seductions of religion – Christianity with its heaven and the man/god Jesus, as well as the seductions of a human beloved. Ultimately, the poet would rather have the struggle than the fulfillment.
Much of the language is Biblical and Christian: American readers of any era know "Cubits" only as the unit of measurement used by God when specifying the dimensions of the ark to Noah. The language of sacrament and blasphemy is also Christian. A nun is considered a bride of Christ, and the speaker presents herself as nun-like. And finally, in previous poems, Dickinson has used the imagery of the sea as the soul's journey to the distant shore of heaven (e.g., "On this wondrous sea – sailing silently" [F3]). Here, the speaker would rather go down with heaven in sight than surrender to its all-encompassing possession. That reminds me of F533 where Heaven entails "too difficult a Grace – / To justify the Dream".
She has also used the sea as a metaphor for passion (e.g., "Wild Nights – Wild Nights!" [F269]). We might read, then, her "Blue Peninsula" as a beloved man whose very presence is paradisical. To be joined with him would be to deny everything she has come to be; it would be a death of sorts, although a blissful one. A poet might well prefer the dark canvas of loneliness, to press her breast against the thorn to sing (can't remember whose image this was – Shakespeare or Pope?) to a parade of hope and a room crowded with the profound love she considers would be like living with a sacrament.
The tone of the poem is as ambiguous as the imagery. It might be read as bitter irony or a haunting sadness; it might just as well be read as an honest and contemplative assessment of her choices and decisions. After all, Dickinson did indeed opt for the small room over either Christian salvation or marriage.
The tone is developed through the quiet statements that seemingly introduce an element of doubt: "It might be lonelier", "It might intrude upon", "It might be easier". These prosy constructions introduce and contrast with the imagistic states of being: a little dark room, lonely or crowded; a sacrament, a parade of hope that is "sweet" but also blasphemes, a blue peninsula.
I like the poem's harmonics. I like how it builds to that achingly beautiful last stanza.
This poem reminds me a little of "I can Wade Grief" (Fr. 312).
ReplyDeletethank you for your blog - I read her regularly, and really appreciate your analysis.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your readings, Susan. Astute and insightful, they make a fine companion to Emily's poems.
ReplyDeleteIn the second line, Without the Loneliness, suggests, to me, the writing about being lonely makes it less so.
ReplyDeleteReminds me of someone who would choose the familiarity of their own pain over the unknown and the possibility (and the risk) of overcoming it, achieving, as it is here, delight. That is, I see this poem reflecting most human's propensity to stay with the status quo of suffering than to dare what lurks (or waits) beyond it.
Yes, striving and hope involve a certain amount of daring and risk. Oddly, Dickinson refers to Peace as the alternative to Loneliness and suffering. Peace is probably not a spur to writing, so perhaps Dickinson is thinking of that creative impoverishment.
DeleteI accidentally read the last word as Daylight instead of Delight. I agree with you that it works either religiously or romantically but I would lean toward the religious meaning. The peace, delight, and joy inherent in the "religious" faith would be too much and crowd out her own spiritual journey that requires the elements of loneliness, darkness, etc. There is also something about the "sweet parade" of religion that is blasphemous to her small, contemplative space that is "ordained to suffering."
ReplyDeleteOn a side note, is there an easy way of looking up my comments without having to remember which poems I have commented on? As I go through the poems, I forget those that I left comments on. Thanks and thank you for the blog!!
not an easy way within the blog search function. But I could send you a list. Use the contact form to give me your email and I'll do so.
Delete"to press her breast against the thorn to sing" - must be Oscar Wilde. The Nightingale and the Rose.
ReplyDeleteThank you!! The source of the image has been bothering me for years and years. From Wilde's "The Nightingale and the Rose" (which doesn't end well):
Delete"If you want a red rose," said the tree, "you must build it out of music by moonlight, and make it red with your own heart's blood. You must sing to me with your breast against a thorn, and your blood must flow into my veins, and become mine."
"Death is a great price to pay for a red rose," cried the Nightingale. "Yet love is better than life, and what is the heart of the bird compared to the heart of a man?"
I love the echo of line 1 and line 12, and the suggestion that her room is her ark and all the salvation that metaphor implies.
ReplyDeleteI love this poem. I found it when I was the most depressed I had ever been in my life, which is only important because a couple months of that creates a really profound kind of loneliness that you almost start to crave. for me, this poem meant it might be lonelier to try to be with others and still feel lonely. At least when you actively choose to be alone, to choose loneliness, you can enjoy your own company. what's scarier is that one day you could choose company and it won't choose you back
ReplyDeleteThank you - your comment rings of truth and insight.
DeleteED built a castle in her imagination, then worried it would cost too much.
ReplyDeleteAn interpretation of ‘It might be lonelier’:
Life with Wadsworth might be lonelier
Than my current life.
I’m so accustomed to my chosen life,
Perhaps life with Wadsworth
Would interrupt my nightly poetry
And crowd my little room,
Too small, by far, to contain
The holiness of Wadsworth.
I’m unaccustomed to hope.
It might intrude upon
My nightly poetry, curse my room,
Which I’ve ordained for suffering.
Before reading the commentaries here, I thought that “Him” in the second stanza refers to “Peace” and I am still inclined to read the poem that way; no beloved is involved here. The understanding of poems such as this one is heavily influenced by our image of Emily Dickinson. If we see her as a strong and reasonably happy woman who chose her seclusion so that she might devote herself fully to poetry, your interpretation makes sense. It’s just that I don’t see her that way. I first came upon this poem in Isabel’s commentary on F267, “Rearrange a "Wife's" Affection!“ and I see it similarly as she does. Emily writes, “I'm so accustomed to my Fate —.“ There’s nothing about free choice here. I sense great resignation, sadness, and even learned helplessness. Her only companion is her “Loneliness”. In F394 “I cried at Pity—not at Pain—“ her close companion is “the Grave.“ Not a company anybody would choose of their own accord. There is nothing uplifting or sublime about real suffering, and we tend to avoid it like the plague.
ReplyDeleteConsider this poem; it literally brought tears to my eyes as I read it.
A not admitting of the wound
Until it grew so wide
That all my Life had entered it
And there were troughs beside –
A closing of the simple lid that opened to the sun
Until the tender Carpenter
Perpetual nail it down –
The pronoun "Him" in Line 8 is capitalized, an honor reserved for God and Wadsworth, to the best of my knowledge.
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