That nearer, every Day,
Kept narrowing its boiling Wheel
Until the Agony
Toyed coolly with the final inch
Of your delirious Hem —
And you dropt, lost,
When something broke —
And let you from a Dream —
As if a Goblin with a Gauge —
Kept measuring the Hours —
Until you felt your Second
Weigh, helpless, in his Paws —
And not a Sinew — stirred — could help,
And sense was setting numb —
When God — remembered — and the Fiend
Let go, then, Overcome —
As if your Sentence stood — pronounced —
And you were frozen led
From Dungeon's luxury of Doubt
To Gibbets, and the Dead —
And when the Film had stitched your eyes
A Creature gasped "Reprieve"!
Which Anguish was the utterest — then —
To perish, or to live?
F425 (1862) J414
"Descent into the Maelstrom" |
That was a near miss – a very close call! But then the next two stanzas describe another nightmare. This time the terrible experience is as if an inhuman Goblin, particularly monstrous with its “Paws,” measures your suffering with a guage, hour after hour, until you were down to the last second, paralysed and numb so that you couldn’t move a muscle to free yourself. We’ve all had these nightmares, fighting to move or even to squeak out a call for help but unable to. They are truly horrible.
Worse, God is involved. Instead of being there to help or rescue, he had forgotten all about you. Good thing he remembered at the last second! The Goblin becomes the devil, “the Fiend,” as if you were captured by Satan and carried, helpless, into Hell. But when God finally shows up, the Fiend lets go.
That’s all bad, but it gets worse! Now you are being led to certain death at the gallows. The terrible experience is as if you’d been sentenced to death but then left in the dungeon – in the “luxury of Doubt” about your future. Well, when the guard comes for you and leads you to the Gibbets, or gallows, for hanging, you don’t have that luxury anymore. You know for sure your moment of death is at hand. As if “frozen,” you go, and as you are hanged and your eyes film over (the film “stitched” your eyes – as if hanging weren’t pain enough), someone comes running up gasping “’Reprieve’!” Once more you are saved at the last possible second from a hideous death.
The question Dickinson poses at the end is whether or not you would feel more anguish at simply dying on the spot or being set loose again to live. Certainly she has not introduced any optimism. No doubt the poor sufferer will have more of these terrible episodes or nightmares – or whatever terrible experiences are being depicted here.
What all of these events have in common is the feeling of helplessness. The Maelstrom, the Goblin, and the Executioner all have the power of life and death. The Maelstrom and the Goblin are cruel, causing pain and observing it for their own purposes. The judge sentences an innocent (perhaps) person to a miserable death. The sufferer doesn’t have power to avoid pain or to inspire her rescue. Rescue seems as inexplicable as pain.
I read about a cruel experiment with dogs where the floor of a dogs cage would deliver painful jolts of electricity. The dogs would try to avoid the pain, but when they realized there was no way to anticipate it or avoid it – no way to stop it, they gave up and just lay down in utter misery. That’s the sense at the end of the poem. If life is like this series of nightmares, why live?
It’s not one of Dickinson’s cheeriest poems. In other poems she finds a way out, or rails against the injustice. Here, however, she simply scribbles it out for all to see. The pain is made more excruciating by her choice of words. The first stanza has Maelstrom, notch, boiling, Agony: all strong, hard, and dramatic words. The second switches to the cool-sounding “Toyed coolly,” and the two “oh” sounds – the dipththong and the long “oh” – force the reader to slow down, just as time was slowing down for the drowning person. But then the words are clipped and short, just as the experience is cut short. There are a series of one-syllable words: dropt, lost, broke, Dream.
What can we say about the “Goblin with a Guage” and his paws? What a great phrase and image. Again, Dickinson uses a string of strong, dramatic words: Goblin, Paws, Sinew, numb, Overcome. This continues and even becomes more hyperbolic as we read Dungeon, Doubt, Gibbets, Dead, stitched, gasped, Anguish, and utterest.
How could those who knew the reclusive Miss Dickinson ever have known she was writing this stuff?
That last line sure reminds me of her poem about the mouse on its slow way to death in the teeth of the cat ("The Whole of It): "'Tis life's award to die, contenteder if once, than dying half, then rallying, for consciouser eclipse." Very simlar poems, maybe?
ReplyDeleteYes, I can see it. Typical for her to work round and round at an idea, delving, working it out... I'd not known about that poem, "The Whole of It." Thanks you for this insight.
ReplyDeleteNot for Dickinson the hospice with morphine.
I’m with Lyndall Gordon on this one. This is a perfect picture of the epileptic, waiting in agony for what she knows is coming, but doesn’t know when. When the maelstrom/goblin/executioner does inevitably return, it ravages its victim nearly to the point of death before it finally let’s go and the seizure is over, leaving its wrung-out victim to recover, terrorized by the spectre of its inevitable and unpredictable return. A terrible way to live - haunted by founded fear.
ReplyDeleteThis is also a perfect picture of the abuse victim expecting the next attack from the perpetrator. Try to read the paragraph above with this image in mind. Horrifying.
DeleteIf ED had suffered epilepsy, we would probably know. There would have been no reason for her or other family members to keep it secret. I suspect it was something worse.
It looks like Emily wished for the truth to be known eventually.
I shall not murmur if at last
The ones I loved below
Permission have to understand
For what I shunned them so —
Divulging it would rest my Heart
But it would ravage theirs —
Why, Katie, Treason has a Voice —
But mine — dispels — in Tears.
How could “you” drift so close to madness without letting go, dragged over the edge by the current of the brain, especially if “you” believe that swimming upstream is equally painful and hopeless? Are “You” Hamlet, determined “to set things right” before you die, or Ophelia, who dies without hope?
ReplyDeleteIn 1862 ED wrote Higginson she chose to sing poetry to survive, but her scars leave excruciating poems such as ‘Twas like a Maelstrom’, along with a gamut of 1300+ other yet-to-be-borns. Maybe she didn't want to disappoint her fanclub for centuries to come.
“Dickinson indeed uses the second person, as if speaking directly to the reader.”
ReplyDeleteShe does, in a way she has not before. I don’t recall another poem where ED so obviously and completely switches person from first to second, that its, “I”, “me”, and “my”, to “you” and “your”.
Reversing the switch, which is how ED may first have written ‘Twas like a Maelstrom’, the poem becomes even more ghastly:
'Twas like a Maelstrom, with a notch,
That nearer, every Day,
Kept narrowing its boiling Wheel
Until the Agony
Toyed coolly with the final inch
Of my delirious Hem —
And I dropt, lost,
When something broke —
And let me from a Dream —
As if a Goblin with a Gauge —
Kept measuring the Hours —
Until I felt my Second
Weigh, helpless, in his Paws —
And not a Sinew — stirred — could help,
And sense was setting numb —
When God — remembered — and the Fiend
Let go, then, Overcome —
As if my Sentence stood — pronounced —
And I were frozen led
From Dungeon's luxury of Doubt
To Gibbets, and the Dead —
And when the Film had stitched my eyes
A Creature gasped "Reprieve"!
Which Anguish was the utterest — then —
To perish, or to live?
ED paints the blurry space between sanity and madness on par with Shakespeare.
" How could those who knew the reclusive Miss Dickinson ever have known she was writing this stuff?"
ReplyDeleteEmiliy seems to be sayin as much in Fr508:
So straight you'd scarce suspect
It was a Pit — with fathoms under it —
It's Circuit just the same
Nobody knew about the depth of her suffering. She had no other option but to hide it.